It's just... I can't do it." "You can do it, everyone has to." "And what if I don't, Teague, what then?" I shrugged. "I don't know for sure. You'll be...stuck here for a while, I know that. You won't be called again for a long time, and you know it'll be the same. You might not be called again for a thousand years, or maybe not forever. You could be stuck here forever, is that what you want?" "No, of course not. I'm so close to moving on, I can feel it pulling at me. It's just this one thing, I. There wasn’t much of anything that could be called privacy anyway, the toilet had a curtain that drew around it and the shower was next to it, just a basin in an alcove with a shower curtain that drew across the front of it also. Crude but effective, except we both had to shut off the water and step out to dry off. We just averted our eyes, there was nothing else to do. We teased each other about how we lived in a little rat hole. In fact, the Rats that lived in the hay barn were probably doing. If the Gnat wasn't otherwise occupied, say evading incoming, then it could guide the FAF onto the target but an enemy was probably not going to be that thoughtful at the knife range of the weapons. The missiles' countermeasures were not quite ineffective against the Gnat; their CW had been designed for longer range, longer time frames and different methods of attack.The two pilots broke it up and cleared the simulators of all record of their work; the Queen had been specific about that. They. I was shampooing my hair when Vala stepped in and started washing my chest. I leaned down and kissed her, and rinsed off. Grabbing a bar of Dial soap, I scrubbed her back for her, as she washed her hair.Five minutes later, we were dried off, dressed and armed as we walked into the kitchen. Jane was bagging up two huge loaves of bread. Sitting beside it was a canister of reddish material. Opening it up I grinned when I saw it was BBQ beef. I was about to snitch some when Jane whacked my hand.