Cathy also asked me why I could not adopt her to become her real daddy. I told her that if I did we couldn't be engaged any more and we would not be a...le to legally marry. Even though we were not blood relations there would be several legal obstacles to overcome and it would be very difficult and expensive. It seemed to satisfy her curiosity so the subject was dropped.Controversy was nothing new to Cathy and me so we learned to roll with the punches every time we hit a bump in the road. We did,. No one said a word as I left the room. I felt sad. I really wanted my time with Alice to be special. I thought we had a connection, but after talking to John, I knew she doubted my intentions. She was special enough to wait on, but for right now, nothing was going to happen.I got back to my room and couldn't fall asleep. I was replaying events from today. I needed to get Alice out of my head. I needed some stress relief. I thought about calling Suzanne, but when would I ever get a better shot. Why don’t they just learn French or Latin? Those are real languages, with real books written in them. Seriously, why don’t they just have a fucking Department of Literature? Nobody wants to major in Grammar and the Song of Roland. Besides, all they talk about is post-post-feminist politics and the Third World anyway. It’s all Social Science for Retards. **** I look at myself in the mirror. Do I like what I see? Oddly, yes. It’s sickening to admit, but sometimes I’m a bit entranced with myself.. Bibi (pointing my friend): Is he your friend? Did he come with you?Me: Yeah, why did you ask?Bibi: Nothing, was observing him. Looks like a total flirt!Me: hahah, yeah, he surely is one.Bibi: his style of talking tells he’s a naughty guy. (Looks at me) Well, I know even you are one. You look and act all the innocent but I know you are a very naughty guy. (Gives a seducing smile)It surprised me, did she see me checking her out. I was confused but her smile got my heart pump blood faster. I don’t.