It will be a sunny day today. It is a perfect day for going downtown. I throw back the comforter and latex sheets. I crawl out of the bed and pull the...sheets from the bed. I take them with to the shower so I can wash them.I turn on the water for the bathtub, and pour a hot bath. I pad my way back into the bedroom. Kneeling over I look at you sleeping so contently in the cage. Unlocking the cage I reach in and pet you. You rustle around, slowly awakening. "Bath time." I speak softlyYou do not. I stoodunder the soothing warm spray enjoying the feeling and soaping myselfwith the creamy body wash he must have left. The breasts, my breasts,were a focus of my attention, I couldn't help it, I mused that I wouldhave to seek some kind of medical help and get them removed before Iwent mad and yet I couldn't stop caressing them as I considered it.Returning to my bedroom to dry, I put on a clean pair of panties thenturned glancing at myself in the mirror. It made me stop, to look. Mybreasts. They continued dancing to the next song until the guy pushed Ana to go outside.They both made their way outside closing the sliding doors behind them. I waited a few moments before following. When I entered the garden I couldn't see anybody. I could just hear some light laughter in the darkness. As I scanned the garden I could see a set of steps between two bushes. As I approached there, I noticed my wife sat on a wooden table with the black guy standing between her spread open legs. I stepped. It’s just a quick thing. Played just once. Rather than seeing it in slow motion it happens naturally. Everything is real time. It happens and it’s over.Messy. But over.The biggest shock is seeing yourself, knowing it’s you. Knowing you ain’t there anymore. It’s something the newly deceased has to get used to.Being dead.It can be a shock!It was a shock to me I have to admit. For some it can take a long time to come to grips with the new state of being ... or of not being. Of course, that is.