So I drove downtown in my shitty used car and parked. It was cold, I was depressed and lonely, so I went to a few bars, and eventually found a strip c...ub…Being a 19 year old virgin, horny as hell, I figured why not. I got in, and ordered a beer at the bar. I sat down and just watched. The way they danced and got naked for everyone was so sexy. There was one lady in particular that caught my attention, she had brown hair with blond highlights, sexy tits, and her ass stuck out like she wanted it. We lay together for a short time talking caressing and kissing before getting dressed and heading out on the town. This continued for a week while I was in town. At the end of the week I traveled to her place in California just outside LA for a short three day stay before going home.Once we were at her house we jumped back in bed and stayed there like two newlyweds in heat. This time we were fucking doggy style and she was slamming her hips back into me while I pumped. She was cumming so hard. I just loose sight ofit sometimes." See, it always comes back to focus with you. Your lack of focus.Always. You don't have the focus or the discipline for real change." I don't. I don't miss. But you do. You have the discipline andfocus. You can make me. I'm sure you can. You can force me. I'm yoursissy. Please make me." I don't 'have' to do anything. And what do you know about being 'mysissy'? 'My sissy' isn't some selfish, uptight, Catholic homophobe.'My sissy' would never have put me in such. The bulges at the front of their jeans left no doubt. Then they played with me, as though I were a toy. They stroked and felt and pinched and slapped and probed, and made me turn and twist and arch myself for their convenience and delight. They squeezed my balls until they made me scream, which they enjoyed enormously. And then they made me tell them what a bitch I was, a filthy fag, a piece of shit, a cocksucker, and any other names that came to mind. Of course I said it all.Now they were.