. What am I supposed to do now?racheI'm so Numb, er ... gettin Dumb, er ... all the time2009-07-21Wow ... I usually try to write my blog notes offline...because the internet café here is right next to the bar where I like to hang out. Usually I hang out for awhile, go internet for awhile, then hang out some more. If I try to do my blog entries, or do anything more complicated than answer emails and yes/no questions, I usually end up embarrassing myself.The proof is in the pudding.So, I take back. Eventually, Jan accepted Belinda's presence and the two girls became friends. It didn't stop me from sucking face with the attractive teenager whenever the opportunity presented itself."Did you hear me? I said that Jan has a crush on you," Belinda said a little louder that brought me back to the present."Yeah, I know, "I finally responded."Do you think she's pretty?" Belinda asked.Was Belinda trying to provoke a fight? Did she want me to admit that I found this teenage girl attractive? Did she. “What?” she said, looking up at me. “You're still going to get my cherry tonight. I've just always thought guys doing guys was really hot.”Little did she know, I did, too. I'm very strongly – and very secretly – bisexual. I'd shared oral pleasure with a number of friends back home, beginning in about sixth grade. Most boys that age experiment with some form of homo-erotic pleasure, I believe. Most also leave it behind as they graduate to girls. I didn't.Nothing had ever happened with Jason in. He felt her tongue touch his hand tentatively; and then she moved it back and forth slowly. Running her soft tongue over his palm, licking him like a dog.“Stop that” Jason said sharply. It was hard enough to control himself as it was, he didn’t need her actively trying to distract him.She immediately ceased, and looked up at him with heavily lidded eyes and an expression he couldn’t decipher. She lay there, her legs still spread and not trying to hide her naked body from him in any way. Jason.