My false breasts hadpreviously been removed to let my chest breathe, and now my nipples hadbeen sprayed and clamped.I filled with foreboding - and yel...ed into my gag as the punch piercedmy left nipple.My back was still arched in response to the pain as Samantha pierced myright nipple.My eyes flooded with tears of pain, as I slowly sank back into my bondson the couch.Barbara removed my ball gag, and kissed me full on the mouth to comfortme."Oh, Barbara ... How could you do this to me?" I. I'd just wake up depressed, put on a brave face, and try to act 'as if' everything was all right when it wasn't. I knew it wasn't, but didn't know what to say. I think the drugs and sex made me temporarily forget the bad feelings welling up inside me. I found out late that they really contributed to my depression and ill-feelings about myself. I'm so sorry I went that way."She paused for a huge sniff, "Dr. Cowan helped me see the same things you just said that I'd shut out you and the others. I was aware that Vickie gasped. I think she sensed them too. Or maybe she just sensed me. But I had them."Penny! We've got company, and they're armed to the teeth!" I thought to her excitedly."Everybody! Down on the floor. NOW!" Penny yelled as she ran for the observation car.She crashed through the door and knocked quickly on David's door."We have company," she called through the door.Then she turned and made her way back to the Guest Wing, pausing only a second to tell Kip, "Company."He. Important things for a woman to hear. I had quit my job at the Health Analysis clinic, the job I wanted so badly for so many years. Somehow it didn’t matter, I couldn’t stay in my home, alone. The walls closed in, the memories were too strong. It was just a matter of time before I missed something obvious with a patient, I knew that. I also knew I would never be able to live with that if it happened. I had to change. So when Jon asked me to come and be with him, it wasn’t a difficult decision..