But being here with you, in the flesh, those words hurt me. It is something that I will have to deal with. I’m going to take a shower now.”With th...t I got up and went to the shower. There, at least I could cry, alone.Showered, shaved, dressed. I went looking for Amelia. There was a note on the table from her.Drew, I am sorry if my words hurt your stupid male ego. Yes you are correct that we both havedeep roots that cannot be moved. I have gone out for a bit to think alone. I could not kick you. We entered into the cool of the diner's airconditioning, its smell of barbeque sauce and its loud buzz ofconversation.We were lucky. There was a booth just vacated, and without pausingVictoria tucked herself into the seat, keeping her knees demurelytogether. The waitress was attentive as usual and arrived withinseconds, failing to notice anxiety I must have been showing - a weedyguy, clammy with sweat, sitting with his beautiful lunch date.Victoria ordered ice water with lemon. I craved a shot. It is the way that I swim to beat on an evil mouth or to strike food to make it go still. It is so strange a thing to do that I almost do not move as he comes nearer, but then I do move. As I move he turns away from me and slows.I do not know what to think of this. I do not know what I speak that would give such deep offense. I wish to think for a time, and I go above to breathe. I am still not sure what I should do when he comes to the surface beside me.“I wish to hear all of your story,” he. She always did like giving Carl his baths, she enjoyed seeing her cute boy wet and naked and the little boner episodes were just adorable. She wondered this time...does he like moms soft touch and wandering caress? All over?Amber kneeled down by the tub and rubbed her hands with soap. Little Carl squirmed his way over to where she was. She lathered her hands. "All the washcloths are dirty so mommy will have to use her hands, k sweety ?". "Ok" he replied softly.As Ambers hands gently rubbed his.