I needed to lose weight and build strength. I bought two .22 revolvers, two .22 rifles and another .22 mag (WMR) rifle. I bought ammunition for both e...ery weekend. I walked a lot.I started a shopping list-- which I promptly threw away. I really didn't know what I needed until I saw the place.What did I want? That I could quote my requirements from memory-- I wanted a semi-accessible place up in a draw with a little flat land but mostly trees. Fire road or jeep-accessible was fine. If it butted. Maureen stuck a patch over each of my nipples that had ametal stud in the middle of it. Next she applied an adhesive to whatlooked like a breast she was holding in her hand. She attached a shortwire to the stud glued to my chest and pressed the breast into place onthe right side of my chest. In moments the left side was in place and shetweaked the nipple. I could feel a tingle emanating from my own nipple asthe artificial nipple was manipulated."That will give you the same sensation that a real. Everything else was bald. He reached out and took hold of the last lock of hair.“No!” I screamed. “Don’t take my hair away. Stop! Stop!” But he yanked on it anyway and I felt my soul being ripped from my body. And all my thirteen-year-old friends were laughing at me and pointing and calling me a freak. I couldn’t wake up. There was the fright wig mother gave me with its polyester hair sticking out in clownish curls.“Hey Bozo!” my one-time friends yelled. “Hey Bozo!” “Wake up, Baldy!” “Freak!”. Added to that the fact that, the night before, I’d gone out with Sudha, who’d let me go so far as to finger her before telling me that she wanted to save herself for marriage. It had gotten to the point where I wondered what I was doing wrong.Such was my mindset when I crossed my front lawn, backpack over one shoulder, to see my parents’ car missing from the driveway. Dimly I remembered them saying they would be out of town for the week and warning me against any parties, but I hadn’t really.