"Damn you Malissa," shestarted to cry. "I told you I didn't want to do that." Ahh, but you also told me that you were an anal virgin," I pointed out."...ou took that like you wanted it. if you were a virgin you'd have alreadywhipped it out by now." I, I don't want to feel empty, and abandoned. Oh god how I've tried sohard to overcome it and now you just ram it in and stir up all the oldlusts again." China I'm sorry maybe you should open up to people more. Just tell me whatit is you're so afraid. It’s like I’m drownin’ in molasses, and when I struggle to the surface to take a breath, I get a scant few seconds before I go back under again. Now you got me wastin’ that precious time tellin’ you to stop bein’ a chump.”“Well, you can go find yourself another chump,” Ethan replied as he marched past the specter. The lights began to flicker on again, the man in the cap’s voice receding, like he was calling to Ethan from a great distance.“Nobody glows as bright as you do, shamus...”Ethan. She took her place in the sleeping bag, and pulled him down beside her. He looked out of the door, and none of them were even looking at them. "Don't worry, Sweetie. They won't pay us any attention, unless I get loud. Then they'll look, just to see what you're doin' to make me holler. They've all fucked me more than any of us can remember, and have watched each other almost every time. Only Bruce has fucked me in private. Or so we thought. We walked from Billy and Cathy's house to Mom and Dad's. Though he doubted those thoughts the moment he'd had them. Once again, he heard what he thought was another whimper, finally able to see better, and quietly taking the stairs upwards towards her room. What he thought he was doing, or could do as he did, remained a mystery even to him. But he was concerned. He had hoped that her birthday would have been something special, something to remember, but not if it had gone wrong.And yet. The image of her standing there at the doorstep, kissing Bobby,.