The new babysitter was the same age as me. She thought it was funny thata boy my age was dressed as a girl and needed a babysitter. My fatherwould mak... sure I could hear him when he would yell to my mother, "I'mgoing to pick up Bobbie's sitter."The first time she came over to watch me it was obvious that she didn'tknow what she was getting into.She introduced herself to my mother she said, "Hi Mrs. Mackie, I'mJessica, I'm happy to be babysitting your daughter."My mother said, "Oh, let me call. Those women were usually beautiful and submissive knowing that they had to give the cowboy a good ride and make him work to get the prize of their vagina or their rear door after a lot of pre-ride spanking and anal games that degraded the women and made the cowboys more confidant in their ability to get them broken in nice and quick to take it all the way up and begging for more.Sally and Henry and Peter and Lucille were boning up for their wife swapping pig chasing orgy right there on the. "You look bored," she said. I was. The male strippers were putting on a show, and I could barely even watch it. I was through with men."I am," I said."Want to go upstairs and have some fun?" she whispered in my ear.I didn't see it coming. I was shocked and a little embarrassed. Also flattered. It was too sudden, I wasn't ready, and I couldn't find the words to say, so I said nothing. Erika drifted away and lost herself in the crowd.Damn!Later, I asked one of my friends about her. Erika Davis, I. " I would say, "just tell them, why further the head game of them thinking all is fine." Emotional honesty is so important and it was funny that I learned it best from Mary. She told me flat out she could not live with me and couldn't imagine me being her husband. Was I insulted? No, my feelings were hurt a little but at least I knew where I stood and we could continue as friends and that has worked out great.I think Allie and I had mind of making love and I'm not sure which one of us fell.