I actually felt fortunate that I was able to live in both worldswith some success, but looking back I now realize just how unfulfillingthat existence ...as. Not belonging, not being the property of another isnot being alive it is existing.I believe in past lives. I do! How else could you possibly explain mydesire to submit to the neighborhood girls when I was only 7 or 8? Howelse do you explain thoughts in my head at age 12 or 13 I should get onhormones now, when I knew nothing about such. She was moaning as Karaaan. Slowly! Please!I was totally out of control we both kissed passionately for 20 min. By kissing she unbuttoned my pant and took my tool out which was like hard rock and started to stroke. Oh man I was in heaven! Her saliva and her body smell and her long hair have driven me crazy. After kissing I bent downwards I ate her appetite i.e. I licked her belly with my face dipped in it and was massaging her ass perfectly round covered with panty and petticoat, she was. Some of the women had two or three of the poor dumb bastards buying them drinks at the same time in hopes of taking them home or to their cars for a little nookie later in the evening. Many of the young "ladies" would cadge drinks from the dumb men until just before closing time. Usually at last call or slightly before there would be a large exodus of these women. They would use the pretense of going to the restroom before leaving with the young man that had treated them for the evening to. This added to his feelings of inadequacy and made it uncomfortable for the four of us to do things as a group. His feelings are magnified when his wife sees firsthand what a motivated person can accomplish. So, over the years we have developed our social patterns that have worked so far. I think there was also some jealousy over our son Justin. Tina has a medical condition that does not allow an egg to implant in her uterus, so they have never had k**s. I tried to speak to Don about adoption a.