." She's in class, Randy," said Tina, as she gripped his arm. In a quiet voice she asked, "What were you going to say?" Oh, nothing," he replied, in a...voice as sincere as a Congressman's. And about as convincing."Don't bullshit me Randy," she said. "What's the deal?"The other boy said nothing for a moment, and just looked at her. He then tried to deflect her by saying, "Well, it's a combination of things. You and Cindy are both really hot, but you're the kind of hot that a lot of people find. I don’t and probably you don’t consider yourself as gay, as you don’t want a relationship, cuddle, hold hands, or make out with another guy, if you do, then your most likely gay – and that should make a lot of things easier for you moving ahead meeting other gay men and enjoying yourself, coming out would be the hardest part.Now if you don’t have gay tendencies and you only you just want to suck a cock, things can be a bit more complex, your married, or in a relationship with a women, and. The memory of Theresa wouldn't let meconsider her for girlfriend type material, but I did think she might make a friend. After I'd said goodbye to Sylvia, I went out for a walk, cursingat the different length's of my legs, and how uncomfortable they madewalking. After I'd walked a couple blocks, I realized that someone wasfollowing me. Nervously, I kept going, looking for a building to duckinto or something. Unfortunately, whomever was following me realizedthat I saw them, and. Totally useless. I'd have no reason at all to go on. I would have day after day of numbness and loneliness."Becky, I can't go on without you. You have been my life for so long I can't possibly go on without you. Can't you see that? You're leaving me and I'll be alone for the rest of my life. I can't take that thought. I just can't." Oh John."Her voice was soft and low. I could see that I had hurt her again. Once again I had cut her soul. I felt bad about it all, but at the same time I couldn't.