"I don't know."For days the pair was on pins and needles. They had learned their lesson in one important respect; they maintained physical distance at...school and were careful not to indulge in looks of longing across the halls or classrooms. At the same time though they kept up being close and chatty, after all, they were still best friends. They just had to balance that with the fact that they were now also lovers. The first was well-known, the second something they still wanted to keep under. We saw each other two to three times a week, and usually spent part of that time “making out.” I really liked Eileen. Sometimes our “make out” sessions would turn into “heavy petting,” with me “feeling her up” (massaging her naked breasts.) My older brother would often ask me if I had fucked her yet. I would tell him that “she wasn’t that kind of a girl”. My brother would tell me that it was me, and not her who was creating the problem. I remember telling him that it wasn’t a problem and that I. Don't tell Max I said that." I don't see him too often," Saul observed."Now, understand, I was good at it. I got all kinds of prizes and awards and stuff. But I got to a point where I really wasn't doing much any more because it wasn't much of a challenge, as I saw it. Mom and I talked about it a lot. She critiques my work, even today. She's not an artist, she teaches gynecology. But she has good taste, knows how to evaluate things. I really trust her because her responses are right from the. I loved my new parents. And most of all I loved Alana. I'd told my father that she was my soul mate. I'd told him the truth. As Aaron MacDonald there was no Alana. As John Windom there was no Alana. As Debra Oakman there was no Alana. If Hector moved me again, I'd die. I wouldn't want to live without my Alana at my side.And my to-do list had not gotten any shorter. Each time I reached one milestone, I created another. I wanted to marry Alana. I'd create an Alana Wedding series from that event..