Sitting down for a few minutes to catch my breath and let the day roll off of me, I started to think about you. I decided to watch a movie to relax be...ore going to bed, but I couldn’t stop my mind from wandering from this to that. No matter what popped into my head, my thoughts seemed to always return to you. After the movie, I changed into my pajamas and checked my email before deciding to lay my head down and drift off to sleep. I lay there awake for what seemed like hours. No matter what I. ..what are you doing?" I found the strength to pull my head up to face him, except that I couldn't see him in the dark."Sweetie, I'm gonna show you what you've been messing with since you moved here."He pulled me tighter and his lips sought out my own and he began the softest, most passionate kiss I'd ever had in my life. His hands roamed freely over my naked body and I felt myself responding to his kiss with a kiss of my own. The drugs made me feel as if I was watching this all take place from. "Yes Miss," he uttered.Down on the floor, and he started, and within seconds, he was on the edge."Tell us what you are doing," Cindy said."I am on the edge now Miss," he said. "I have to go very slow and careful,or I will go over the edge and ejaculate everything." And how long can you stay near the edge like that," Cindy asked."Many hours Miss" he said."That must be so frustrating for you," she said."I love it Miss," he answered."Okay great, then you stay exactly in that position, dressed just. As wild as she was, I wanted so much for her to straighten herself out. No matter what, I had idolized this child for all these years (which was one of the reasons my wife was so frustrated with me, she felt that I should have been stronger in disciplining Renee).I don't know when things started to go amiss that night, but I do know that I can't blame it all on my daughter. Even though she was my own flesh and blood, I have to admit that there were many times over the years that I fantasized.