M’kamba will not be so easy with me for this. I hear in my mind her voice telling me how foolish I am. “You listen only to surface,” she says, �...�you do not look beneath. Always it is needed to look beneath, to pierce through many layers to truth, do not stop at one or two or even more, go all way to base where truth lies.”But this day I do not do. I go to many layers, but there is still more beneath all and there I do not see. M’kamba has shame for me.M’kamba. She is dead, so many years ago I. Bechari neeta mujhe uthati reh gayi jab uska bus nahi chala toh usne paani ki botal utha kar mere upar kuch pani gira diya.Main gusse main uhta toh wo bhagne lagi par maine dord kar use pakad liya or baaki bacha botal ka paani uske sar pe udel diya. Or kaha “ ab aaya maza” botal mein adhe se zada paani bacha tha, jo uske baalon ko bheegota hua uske chehre par aaya or chehre se gir kar sidha uske seene ko gila kar raha tha uske boobs puri tarah bheeg chuke the jab use kuch samajh nahi aaya toh. I was now all dressed and went into daddy, i am all done daddy i said. Daddy looked up, try open up he said, i now wanted to tease him a little, so i turned around and went out to the kitchen. Stop daddy said, didn`t you hear what i said sissy toy and he came to me. Try open up the shirt daddy said again, and i did it just a little, what do you think daddy, i am looking hot, right? Daddy could control himself, so he told me to take the jogging suit off again, he wanted to see the new boots on,. Abar kal dekha jabe.” Ami uthe chan korte chole gelam ar chan kore nengto hoye beriye eshe boudir songe ek thala te bhat kheye nilam. Bhat khabar por amar bhishon ghum pete laglo aar ami boudir ghore giye shoye porlam. Jakhon ghum bhanglo dekhi je sondheye geche aar boudi ghorer kapor chopor guchoche. Ami uth cha khelam ar rktu ghurte gelam. Bari pherar somay ami dokan theke kichu mishtee aar duto blue filmer CD niye phirlam. Sei raate shobar somaye ami boudir guud du bar chudlam. Tar por theke.