‘How can I have sex and suddenly be afraid to talk about it with the one I had sex with? This is not okay. I need to be able to do this. She needs m... to be able to do this.’ Lauren walked into the kitchen where Julia was busy toasting bread. ‘Want anything in particular?’ she stole yet another kiss from Lauren. ‘I like this part.’ Lauren told herself. ‘Um, the toast looks good.’ ‘Orange juice or milk?’ ‘Juice will be fine. Anything you need help with?’ ‘No, I’ve got it all under control.’. Then she did it again.“Come on Billy, you have to kiss me too.”A couple of kisses later I finally got over some of my nervousness and put my arms around Ellen. She put her arms around me and the kisses became hot and heavy. I was loving this girlfriend boyfriend stuff. Who would have thought Billy Tucker would ever get so lucky.We had been kissing for about ten minutes when Ellen whispered in my ear, “If you let me touch your willie again I will let you touch my boobs.Now there was an offer. (She's a red-head and finds that the wig gives her an alternate persona.) Two dangling clip-on earrings and I get to look. Upon seeing my reflection, I made the closest approximation to a squeal that my throat would allow. The noise was not planned, it's just that I was so excited that I squealed!We went into the other room to try out what clothes would fit and flatter. (This is where I need a reality check: I'm fully made up and about to try on numerous outfits!) We started with a miracle bra. ‘You wanted more?’ If I had been able to speak I would have agreed but her mouth closed over mine again and her tongue eased into me. This was a scene I could never have envisaged. ‘Not everyone knows what she is looking for.’ My words came back to me. Despite the circumstances my mind was clear. I had been looking for something when I went to that bar but it was undefined. It was, well, something. It was something that I had not experienced before, something that would take me, oh God, will I.