"Hello," I said."Um, yes. Could I speak to Justin Lake please?" a man asked."Speaking. This is Frank Mays I presume?" Yes. How did you know it was me,...have we met?"I laughed. "Frank we have only met in our dreams." You know about the dreams?" Yes I know about both of your dreams. The last one I helped give you, so we could talk about the first one. When are you due to get out of the hospital?" If all goes well Tuesday, normally they would keep me longer I think, but with all the stuff going on,. Well I didn’t fancy drinking myself into a stupor, and I wasn’t going to plead her to come back. So I decided to see it as an opportunity to do something different with my life. But I didn’t know what. I decided that I needed to get away somewhere to get my head around what I was going to do. So I booked a short break in Amsterdam. I’d been there before with my wife and I had always wanted to go back. On the flight over I started to doubt the sense of going to Amsterdam (or anywhere). How could. Yes, I have been in relationships and dated a couple of boys here and there but never have went much farther then kissing or the occasional hand job. Still keeping my virginity had to be the hardest accomplishment to date. I’m not a total prude though, yes I want to keep myself pure until the right man, but I do get horny , which has gotten me in some very bad situations but I have always come out of it and save myself. But as for the current situation I am presently in, I have to say this is. She said that this additional adjustment would cost an additional $5,000.- also payable in advance. She asked if there was any additional behavior I wanted my little girl to be adjusted for. I told her that I would periodically be away, and that during those periods, I understood that my little girl would have a compulsion to swallow the cum of other men, and that she should allow herself to do that. But I wanted her to feel guilty for doing so, and to feel fear about it, in the form of anxiety.