That 2-3 weeks was when I really got to know her well. She would always make a point to tell me that she didn’t wear underwear, this I already knew ...eing her best friend who was a guy, and wore dresses to entice me. One day she told me don’t look and bent over her coffee table to tie her shoe while her ass was pointed at my face. Yeah, right. I looked. Her pussy was peeking out the bottom of her dress, and suddenly my dick got hard inside my pants and bulged alongside the crotch area of my. .. okay, I'll just come out and say it ... I think that I'm at least a natural sissy or transvestite or something, if not an actual woman. I want to experiment further with my femininity, see where it takes me. I've never felt so alive as when I've adopted the woman's role in sex, relationships, and things in general. Makeup, long hair, manicures, pedicures, etc. Primping. Styling. Fashion ... more and more, I'm awakening to my interest in these things, Dan. I've not yet sure how far this goes,. Next we saw my first life sized sex doll. I forget her name, but we will call her Janice. She had that realistic looking skin and the same frozen O mouth. She also had two holdouts where you could add tons of the lube: one for her mouth, and one for her pussy and anus. Her pussy and anus looked a bit gaped, but otherwise seemed fairly accurate. She may have cost like $3000.00 at the time, but whatever it was seemed very expensive.Louise reasoned “Why spend all that money on a doll? I’ll bet you. That sure rings true for me, Tom, but women are more like irons-it takes them a while to heat up, but when they are hot, they are boiling, and then it takes them a long time to cool down. I know that that is true, but I don't think that those boys did anything but jack off to the Playmate of the month or whatever, Christian boys are the worst, and they always, always, think I should suck their dicks.,.but they never say it, never say: " Katie, please suck me " or something, no, oh no, they try.