Knowing this I made my best effort to live as a woman. During myfirst year as a woman I would get erections watching thebeautiful strippers on stage, ...nd I would retire to the bathroomand jack-off. But after awhile of constantly being fucked in theass and sucking huge dicks, you begin to associate sex andarousal with the presence of another cock. It became harder andharder for me to masturbate to the thought or sight of women.Rather than deal with that I simply stopped masturbating. Ihadn't. .. I don't really feel comfortable with something like that. I'm sorry. Do what you have to."There was a pregnant pause, and then Carrie sighed and stood up. The bed creaked, relieved of her pressure. She reached towards her pile of clothes and started getting dressed. "I'm not going to force you or anything, Natalie. That wasn't a promise or anything, just ... a hope."I could hear it in her voice ... frustration, resignation, her hope and love tonight spoiled once again. I just couldn't be. I could feel i was cumming a lot more! My juices were pouring out of me. He was sucking on my pussy licking my clit and loved every minute of it. There was so much cum on his face when he looked up. "baby your juices taste so good!" Frank said with a big smile on his face. We must have been moving really really fast because the air mattress was almost flat! He took some cum with his hands and stroked his dick.Thinking to myself I thought damn his cock is even more huge! His cock was 11" inches. The cabin was up a narrow canyon about a half mile from the creek. It was on the side of the creek toward Wild Horse Hill. A small spring yielded only enough fresh water for a patient man. Cap had put a galvanized tub there to catch the trickle of water. One of Cap’s riders got up and walked to the cot I laid on. I’d only ever heard anyone call him Dad, although I don’t think he was more than thirty-five. ‘I see you’re awake. D’ya know you been sleepin’ for a week? Damn if you didn’t almost die.