She drew him up and together they walked outside and down to the docks. Sitting down he held her close and they gazed up at the star filled sky. He di...n’t know if he should talk or just keep silent. It was Dani who decided for him. ‘Talk to me Bull, I feel you’re shutting me on somehow.’ ‘I know but since what happened the other day, I feel so twisted up inside. I came so close to just giving you and our son to Nick by not thinking what I was doing. I had no business being so foolish.’ ‘No you. One of my notes – on Rhytidoponera metallica, the green ant or metallic pony ant – appeared in Australian Entomologist. Another appeared in Austral Entomology, the journal of the Australian Entomological Society. I’d done my bit in Hobart and taught at ANU in 1998. I received several verbal ‘pats.’ It was a good beginning to 1999.I was invited to give a Tuesday talk at the Entomological Society of Queensland in Brisbane and at the end of April I flew to Townsville via Sydney to represent the. ” The doctor’s insights hit me like a ton of bricks. I immediately understood what he was saying. I could then remember the thrill I got being humiliated by those boys. I even ejaculated in my pants while I was sucking them, and especially when I swallowed their cum. The reality that I was taking their reproductive fluids into my mouth and swallowing them was somehow thrilling for me. I thanked the doctor for his help, and over his objections, I stopped seeing him. It seemed like I knew enough. “That’s a pretty gown you are wearing, beautiful. You plan on wearing it home?” Looking a little flushed and embarrassed, she said, “No, I was hoping to stay the night here with you – that is, if you want me to.” I couldn’t believe what I was hearing from her! Would I want her to stay with me tonight, well hell yes! I just stared at her for a moment, but then I saw her start tearing up a bit and I realized she needed an answer before self-doubt took hold of her. “I would love it if you stayed.