‘Yes, where would you like to begin?’ ‘Numbers?’ ‘Sorry, that’s classified.’ ‘Oh,’ he laughed, ‘well…distribution?’ ‘Most of...the western world.’ ‘What?’ She exhaled a broad plume of smoke toward the ceiling, lips quirked in a smile, ‘You heard me.’ ‘Growth?’ he asked, dumbfounded. ‘Rapid. We have cells in every major city, and each member is charged with recruiting two initiates a month, as a matter of policy.’ ‘That’s incredible, how do you do it?’ ‘Oh, usually through self improvement courses. How am I to respect myself for loving a Granny who took so much delight in making sure I got punished? I bet you got off on that." Is that what you think? That I enjoyed telling your Mom and Dad?" Damn straight, Gran, you could've punished me and I would have deserved it but to make sure I got it twice... I swore I'd get even. You always said you have to be truthful; is this enough truth?" You have really changed Buck. You say how you feel and have no issues with it." Gran sounded like she. He took side streets, not even particularly noticing where he was, just thinking. The thought of driving off the road into the river briefly crossed his mind, but it seemed like too much trouble. He wasn’t that decisive. Killing himself would take too much thought and planning. Jack’s stomach started growling and he realized he hadn’t eaten since breakfast. Eating sounded like too much trouble as well, but the thought of food made him at least look at the buildings he was passing. He turned. Still sobbing softly, she paused before replying. "I don't know if I can keep going, Eddie. I can't keep doing this. Look at me, my god. I feel so cheap, so used." Shhh….baby, it's ok, it's ok. You know I love you with all of my heart." I was trying to calm her down, to soothe her."I don't know how to stop this honey." Her tears were flowing again. "I don't think we can stop this now."We laid there for a few minutes in silence while she calmed down; then she told me that Trent hadn't hurt her….