I am lost like a child in his presence. Lost forever — but there is no place I'd rather be."Olga accepted her fate. Of course she detested sharing h...m with the other woman, even if she was an ocean away. She yearned to have him all to herself. She dreamt of living with him, being his wife and the mother of his children — even the stepmother of another woman's children. She ached for a life in which she was never without him. But she had to accept a reality in which he was away more often than. "I shook my head."We had elements of a good marriage," I replied. "Nothing more. We don't talk about things; we yell about them. There is little trust. I get jealous when you talk to other guys and your new job worries me. I know you check up on me when I have to be out of town. It's OK because I would do the same to you if the situation were reversed."Gail started to speak but I raised a hand. Again, to my surprise, she stopped."We want different things from life," I said. "We're 32 years old.. We sat down on the couch and talked for a while. Not really sitting close to each other or flirting much yet so I decided to see if she was still in to doing this... I slid over next to her and she just continued to talk about the TV show we were watching. She had propped her legs up on the coffee table and her gown had slid up exposing her sexy thick black legs. I put my hand on her leg and she immediately put her hand on top of my hand. After a few minutes she looked at our hands and said Mmm. "Honey, you can be honest with me... it's okay. Were you... were you playing with yourself?"Justin gulped, and nodded shyly.Her hand caressed his forearm soothingly. "Were you thinking about last night?" She couldn't believe she was being so bold as to bring up what had happened the night before, but her mind was working in dangerous, uncontrollable ways.Justin nodded, and Meg took a deep breath. It was time to get this out in the open. "I guess we haven't talked about what happened Justin. I.