"Mom, its eight o'clock, I've got to go to school, I don't want to be late as I've got double English this morning with Miss Carlton. I've left the co...fee pot on. I'll see you tonight."Before Isabel could stop her, Jane had bent and kissed her moms forehead. Through sleep-blurred eyes Isabel couldn't quite see the clothes Jane was wearing to school, although the skirt did seem a little short and the white shinny blouse a bit tight, and those black Mary-Jane's over white lace trimmed ankle socks. It was such a buzz - I had to do it again. I will never forget the coldblast of air as Ellie nervously went outside for the first time.In January I'd had this email from Marie:Please note the following partying opportunity:Blackpool, 13 March. (Buckets & spades optional)Those of us who took part in the last one had a fabby time.RSVPMariexxxI had only been to Blackpool a couple of times in my life. The windblowing off the sea can be very bracing in March. I checked my diary andit was blank for. 5 ki height aur 32 34 36 rahi hongi, wo muzse aa kar ehne lagi ki kya pls aap mere sath mere bete ke school chalenge mene ha kardi aur unhe bike pe bithake chal diya bahot dhund ne ke baad pata chala ke un ka ladka us ke dost ke papa ke sath dost ghar chala gaya hai, aur phir hum uske dost ke ghar se use le aaye aunty jab ghar pahuchi to unhone muthe bahot thanks kaha aur ghar chali gayi me apne ghar chala gay aur fresh hone ke liye apni pant aur shirt utar ke bathroom chala gaya aur tabhi mere. And that’s where Jezz found me.Jezz is? different. She could hear me crying and the locked door wasn’t going to stop her; she just went into the next stall climbed up on the toilet seat and peered in over the partition. Thirty minutes later I was back at her squat, sitting on her bed, drinking tea, and eating beans on toast, my first hot meal of the day. As I told her my story Jezz just laughed; she’d heard it all before and, whilst she sympathised, I wasn’t allowed to wallow in any self pity..