I was now sonervous I was shaking."Are you scared, Jamie?" I nodded and she smiled. "That's good, honey,because fear is good for you. It strips away y...ur inhibitions. Fear isa drug, Jamie. It bares the nerves, it lets you feel as if for thefirst time, again and again. Embrace your fears, Jamie. Let them takeyou to worlds of pain and pleasure that you could never imagine. Letfear be your guide. Let the fear release you."She moved her head to one side, reminding me of the way a cat watches amouse. ’ He let go of her as he saw her hatred towards him. He didn’t want to treat her like shit, but every time he was near her, he desperately wanted to put her in place, control her. Each time he saw the flicker of pain he wanted to stop, but the satisfaction of seeing her listen to him obediently always outweighed the fact that he was hurting her. Before he could collect histhoughts, Alin had sat down on the stool in front of the vanity table to put the necklace on. She refused to look in the. Does it sound like I'm kidding?" Olivia said softly but seriously. "I fell in love with you fifteen years ago, Liv. I was sure that my feelings would never be returned, so I just buried them deep. Now, you come back into my life and want me to open myself back up and risk my heart. I'm scared," AJ admitted as she ran a finger along the length of Olivia's collar bone. Olivia wrapped her hands around AJ's face and pulled it up even with hers. "I love you, AJ, and I loved you fifteen years ago. I. " I hardly see where any of that would have kept you from getting married."Be patient, I'll get to it. Anyway, by the time we left the dance I had a huge case of blue balls. When it came time to get in the car Mark was driving and you and Don got up front with him and I ended up in the back sitting between Dorothy and Beth. We weren't even out of the parking lot before Beth put her hand on the bulge in my pants and started rubbing it. As soon as she was sure it was hard she started talking to.