I wanted to talk to him, to know him better, but from the chaos I had seen in his mind before the clarity of how my parents had died, I wasn't sure if...he would or even could talk coherently. Still, there was one thing I had to do. I may not have been able to help put his mind back in order, but I could still help my family. I needed his memories of where they were.Just before the paramedics put Randal into the ambulance, I reached out and grazed his hand again. His memories were still jumbled. ‭ ‬All I was needed for was to show up for dinner.‭ ‬Well dinner called for me to take a cleansing shower after my morning trip up river.‭ ‬I barely made the‭ ‬1PM lunch on time, ‭ ‬but I did make it.We had my dad, ‭ ‬his new girl friend, ‭ ‬mom’s vet, ‭ ‬Chisum and me.‭ ‬It looked like Chisum and I were the only ones flying solo.‭ ‬I didn’t mind nearly as much as I should have.‭ ‬I was also shocked when the skinny girl with the bright red hair walked from the kitchen with a platter of corn on. Sie legt mir ein breites Lederhalsband an, zieht mir schöne schwarze Strümpfe an einen festen Strapsgürtel und eine Brusthebe aus Leder an. Dann klingelt es an der Tür und Beate öffnet. Da steht der Deckhengst Namens Mark und Beate führt ihn direkt in das Zimmer in dem ich sichtlich ängstlich und unbeholfen auf dem Sofa sitze. Es ist mir peinlich, dass er mich schamlos betracht und ich mich präsentieren musst. Beate fühlt meine Unsicherheit und redet mir gut zu, tätschelt mir etwas den Po und. "Shhh, it's ok. I'm here," I whispered as she clutched me tightly."Not ok. You must banish me," she replied as she wailed."For what? Never!" I asked as I picked her up. Turning, I held her in my arms and looked at the carnage around us."I'm soiled. Even the mother will turn from us if you don't, it must be done. I will pack the items I'm allowed to take with me, and go out into the wilderness for a year. If I live, I will come home, otherwise I will die," she replied.I stood her up and held her.