"Hey," He says in a soft voice."Finally," I reply with a smile, referring to the amount of time it's taken to meet up.We look at one another, he gestu...es for us to sit on the bench to the left. I sit down, still eyeing him; not believing I'm finally meeting him. We're both kind of nervous on where to start or what to do so we make small talk for a minute or two but I feel this is not enough. I want him, I want his physical touch, I want my hands to wonder.Simultaneously we move closer to each. After Tuesday, it won't really matter, I guess. No one will see that part of me, even if the service is open-casket.I wonder if Brenda will come to my funeral.DEE'S DIARYSATURDAY, MAY 5thDear Diary,This is going to be a long entry. I finally told somebody! I still can't believe it. I never even wrote about it in my journal after "the event"... I couldn't bring myself to even think about it! But now I've told Brenda, and I believe that maybe if I write it all down here, I can finally accept what. Along with the third stanza she was removing her underskirt. I noticed that her underskirt was more fitting and tight than what other women normally wear. I assumed that probable she like the clothes on her body to be tight. She slowly swaying her hips to the song slowly lowered her underskirt till it is lying around her legs on the floor. This she does so slowly that it lasts throughout the third stanza of the song.As the fourth stanza starts, she said with a pleading voice “Jiju please,. "Great mum, thanks, you all right for money?" Oh yeah," I giggled. "I emptied our joint account three weeks ago and put it all into mine." Serves him bloody right." My thoughts exactly darling." It was four days later when I stepped off the plane into the searing heat of a Spanish summer, I was getting quite used to the heat after Jamaica and I thought how nice it would be to live in Spain where everything and everybody was so much more relaxed, Manana would do."Wow, you look fabulous!" Thomas.