She could see through my trepidation to my real desires and ordered, "Go shower. We have a very busy day, my kitty."I obeyed, again trying to squelch ...he burning heat growing below. In the shower I turned the water on colder than I usually did, desperate to calm my desire down, not wanting to be a horny mess while at the conference. I had to turn off my growing slut personality and return to my professional teacher one.Out of the shower, I returned to the room and saw that Alicia was gone. On. I was already crying, convinced that the pattern of behavior that had plagued me my entire life, had once again returned. This time, the everything I stood to lose, actually meant something to me. In my mind, this was happening because, once again, I'd allowed things to get too good for me, and losing all of it was going to be my punishment.I had come to realize something else though, that it wasn't just outside forces that controlled this happening to me. I was almost always the one who set up. Her old boyfriend was thrusting into her and groaning, playing with her tits, and her own hand was running the other woman’s clitoris while she kissed her…Amy gasped in shock, both at the image she’d just conjured and at the response her body made. She shivered as a tiny orgasm flitted through her. Across the sauna, the woman moaned and sighed in pleasure. “Ooh… this is good, pretty, don’t stop.”Amy didn’t stop. She kept rubbing and squeezing and imagining, letting the scene in her mind go. I WOON’T... I CAN’T!“In that mad moment, all past lessons, all past sufferings were forgotten!Julia would, of course, go on Report for her act of defiance.Meanwhile, however, Miss Judith had other plans for her. A rather special form of ‘persuasion’ she was wont to employ from time to time. It was one she had found amusing - and effective - in the past.Thus the weeping Julia was carried up on deck by Ahmed.„Mercy... mercy...“ she kept whimpering softly, almost to herself, „I can’t stand.