All of my parent's sexual teachings, radical views and their total belief in freedom of censorship counted for nothing. Indeed all of the by-laws, or ...rdinances as they preferred to call the changes that were the charter, didn't mean a thing against my one major problem. I was shy, as scared of girls as a man who couldn't swim was of diving in the deep end of a swimming pool! Years of rejections when I was fat and a fast-food junkie had set up a lack of belief that was hard to shake. Even with. She fell forward on her hands with her head bowed inposture of abject worship. "Oh, mistress, I would never do anything to anger you. Command me asyou will, I am your slave." That is what I wish. Your devotion is overwhelming, girl. Itdeserves a reward."The girl shuddered with ecstasy at the thought she had pleased hermistress."Since you have forgotten your name, I will give you a new one. Fromhence forth you will be called Joy." Oh, thank you mistress, thank you!" Joy cried out jubilant. ..disturbing. "This wouldn't happen if Dad were still around." I said that night during dinner,glaring at each of them in turn,as we sat at the table. "Why are you encouraging this,Mom?" Lighten up,Honey,they're just having fun! Besides,Stevie makes such a cute little girl! Yes,You Do! Why,I bet we could dress him up and enter him in the 'Little Miss Haystack Beauty Pageant'! His only real competition would be your si-ster Lucy, Oh and Ginny. Isn't that right,Baby?" Yep! He'd do great too!. He said that we should meet and talk some day and I agreed so we exchanged phone numbers.A couple of weeks passed and I forgot about it when suddenly, one evening, the telephone rang. It was my old friend who asked if I was doing anything special next Saturday. I told him that I had nothing planned so he invited me to his apartment for a drink. It would be fun talking after all these years and also fun to meet his family so I accepted.Saturday came and after lunch I took the bus to his.