"Crop?..." Cropped tee." We take it," Dad said."But..." It's OK, it's not so extreme as it may look at first sight. We takeit."Sure... Dad's word was ...he last one. I'd tried. I'd tried hard, but Iwas alone and they were two of them and Leila was professional and Dadwas with money.We got more like that. Actually not like that one last but like that notnormal. If it was a white shirt it was almost see through. Another waslike normal but its sleeves were puffy and it was something ruffled andloose. Until one day I got an email, it was from a Chinese woman aged 38... She was into exhibitionism too and had lots of photos taken of her around her local town naked. Obviously being in china she had to be extra careful who was watching. She sent me an email saying she wanted to take some nude photos of herself with another man and having seen my advertised pics thought a young man would suit her well.She lived a bit out of the city and invited me to come to her place, stay with her and have her. It's a luxury suite with a large bed and bathroom, it has two large doors leading to a balcony. She walks through the doors and I follow. Nancy’s standing at the railing, overlooking the city; I hug her from behind and softly kiss her neck while my hands run over her body. “I missed your gentle touch,” she says. Her breathing is erratic and every time I move my lips to a different part of her neck she lets out a slight whimper. We stand like this for a while when she turns. We kiss,. Focus. I'm only concerned about my three-meter space; I controlthat; ignore everything else. I felt the adrenaline.An arm hooked mine.I turned to look. So plain to see: a cheery, loving smile, a smile ofadmiration and pure love, a smile that no caring family or loved one couldever ignore or pass off. Here I am: combat vet, long-serving soldier,tough as nails SOF guy. Here I am: walking up the aisle at a wedding.I never thought it would happen this way. I had never wished it wouldhappen this.