"Buckingham looked at him carefully. "Dump it?" he asked. "Where?"Exasperated, Jason yelled, "Drink it, toss it on the carpet, put it back in the bott...e. I don't give a shit!"Jerking at Jason's words, he spilled about four ounces on his hands. Another six or so ounces he quickly drank down. He then poured rum into the glass until it was full. The resulting concoction was no longer the deep brown of Pepsi but an almost clear shade of amber."Drink it down," Jason ordered. "Quickly."Buckingham did. " Really? Never?" Val gasps. "It feels sooooooo good, Kimmi. I wanna watch! Can I? Please?" I wanna watch Kimmi's first time too!" Mel fusses."Girls! Give her some privacy if she wants. Kimmi?" Cara asks."I don't care if you watch. I mean, his head will probably block most of it, won't it? And you already saw him spanking me, so ..." Okay. So lie on the bed, Kimmi. Get comfy. Slide your panties off. Jake, do a good job, okay? Make her first time special," orders Cara."Really, Cara? When did I. I mouthed and signed, "Forward slash -- hug". A smile appeared on your face, we moved towards each other and stopped about six feet apart. Nothing, then I see a small tear appear on your cheek. You drop your bags and run into my arms, we just hold each other while the world went on around us. Totally oblivious to us as we were to them.Still no words, we haven't even heard each other's voices, even after all this time. But it doesn't matter, we are together, finally, and it seems as if it is. . but I m stupid.' Till this day we never talked heart to heart, or rather Broca's area to area. She always had her masks.Wish I could see the lady behind the mask. She is the reason, we kids have careers. She would sit with us, while we studied. She asked us questions, though never knew the answers. Promised us gifts, she could never buy, took a stick when her temper failed, became hysterical when the stick failed, but she did get her results. I often felt manipulated. Her life was her own..