While we fixed the leftover halibut we'd had for last night's dinner into a halibut burger for tonight's, we listened to Bud describe our efforts in m...re glowing terms than we might have."You are close," he told us. "And when it happens, you will know it immediately. There is a definite feeling to successfully locking on something with this ability. I will not have to tell you when it happens."To me it felt like I was trying to juggle marshmallows blindfolded while wearing boxing gloves. Cooper. I explained that I had fallen in love with Thailand and would be staying out here. I didn’t particularly care if they believed me or not, I had burnt my bridges with the UK and there was now only a small number of people that I cared about back there. I did hear from someone that my delightful ex was telling the ever decreasing number of people who would listen to her that she knew I had always been ‘that way inclined’, and that was why she had left me. One message did make me pay attention. It. A small smile came across my face thinking of how I would never see that scumbag again but it was short lived as I noticed that my once plump perky breasts had begun to sag and that my once firm tight ass had become a mushy lump worst of all I had a bit of a belly. At least I have my children. I finally have my children I thought to myself. The more I looked at myself the more I felt a need for change I knew I had to start working out again to lose this belly and maybe a haircut would bring. When we got to her home, she just said thanks and gave me a peck on the cheek while hugging me as tight as she could and went inside, leaving me with my mouth open. But I shrugged it all off. This all happened a year ago, last winter. So now I have a crush on her, and have had a crush ever since that day. I was just too scared to move forward with it. I always thought “better a friend than not”, but that’s what they all think. She was just about the best thing that happened in my life, and I.