And what’s more it happened out of the blue.I was shopping and I guess I had dressed rather provocatively. After all I was only shopping for milk an... a loaf of bread. I guess, in hindsight, wearing a short skirt and a revealing top wasn’t what one wore to the supermarket. Afterwards I stopped in the food court for a coffee before returning home. I saw this guy checking me out in the supermarket. It never worries me as it is a public area. Later I noticed he was also getting a coffee. I smiled. Everything inside of me wanted to just ram into her…but I kept control..This was about her and not about me. I pushed forward gently and heard her gasp as the head slipped inside of her, “It will be ok baby, just relax, and take a deep breath baby.” I pushed forward a bit more, slowly, giving her time to adjust, she was breathing heavy and tensed up..Gently I said, ”Don’t be afraid Heidi, it’s going to be fine honey, relax and it will be easier.” I felt her relax a bit and pushed forward a. " But... ?" Gladys pressed.I sighed. "I know what's right -- but I can't bring myself to push her away. One day, she'll decide about that on her own -- but I'm too weak to make the call for her, and hold myself to it." I wish you'd quit going on and on about it," Carmen said softly. "The decision is made."I sighed and eyed Gladys. "So..." We understand one another," Gladys replied. "If it doesn't work, I can always use a bedroom in one of the other condos. I KNOW it won't be all loud and. It was quite a big reservoir for the area. Now, I couldn't wrap my head around sitting out on a frozen lake hoping the stupid fish would eat your stupid fish bait. It didn't seem like a rational hobby. It had the feeling of, um, a religion—kind of like being a Cubs fan. I spent my time reading books at the library or listening to the conversations and broadcasts on the short-wave receiver.I changed my residence to the town and got my in-state driver's license. With that, and a gas bill to prove.