By the time I was sixteen, I had realised that boys’ bodies didn’t interest or excite me, but girls’ ones did. Whenever I was watching a TV dra...a or a movie, I would always be fantasising about the beautiful leading woman actress, and imagining myself in her arms for the embrace in the final scene. I made very careful and tentative overtures to a few of my friends, all on the supposed basis of curiosity (such as, ‘I wonder what it feels like from the boy’s point of view’), but only one girl. " But Nell!" You can't blame him, Nell," said Shirley. "A Mountie's job is to never forgive or forget. Yes, I'm the former Snidely Whiplash but I've reformed. You see, during my last stint in jail, I went to counseling. They made me realize that my anti social behavior was caused by my rage at my being born a woman but stuck in the body of a man. Therefore, I've decided to live the rest of my life as a woman, or as best I can. My former life of murder, mayhem and destruction is behind me. My. I thought you'd like to know. That means you don't have to quit. And Greg says, even if we get another singer, he wants you to sing 'Destiny Delayed' and 'Hold Me Down' every gig." Wow. Maybe he does care." I think he does."I half-hoped that he would come knock on my door that night, but he didn't. I stayed in, thinking, did a little studying, noodled on my keyboard. Amanda went out and, when she came in, told me she had run into Greg and he was very drunk, which was extremely. I was starting to feel comfortable withmy situation and did not protest as he held me tight and kissed me. Icould tell that he was as excited as me when he firmly put his hands onmy ass and held me close as our bodies rubbed against each other. Aftera few dances Troy mentioned what a great time he was having but it wastime to go, so we left. Back at the hotel he kissed me again and askedif he could come in. I had sometimes fantasized about being with a manand at that moment nothing seemed more.