" I do too. I'm sorry that..." No baby, I'm sorry. I should have turned off the phone. You're more important to me than that damn thing."I felt his ha...dness against my butt, it's stiffness easing between my cheeks. I wanted to feel him deep inside of me again. I realized that his fingers were tracing my bellybutton and trailing down further, caressing my well trimmed patch.He eased them between the top of my lips, tantalizing my love button, and collecting it in his fingers. He gently rolled it. “I seriously considered inviting her in to find out.”“Maybe next time,” I interjected, not looking up from my work massaging her clitoris.She paused, and might have nodded her blonde head again; I could not see from where I was. “In any case, that cooled me down until about halfway through the next lesson, so I was raring to go again when the last lesson of the day came along, which was P.E. Honestly, I didn’t think I was into girls, but all of that bare flesh in the changing room nearly drove. I could put in a quiet word and use skill to avoid any embarrassment for you.’ ‘I’d like to meet you somewhere one evening.’ ‘Christ Annie, what are you saying?’ ‘I know what I’m saying, and so do you. May I call you some mornings?’ ‘If you feel you have to. I’m at the office at 8:00 and don’t meet clients until 9:00. Ask Shea for my number.’ ‘Oh you funny man,’ Annie laughed, holding out her glass for another drink. When Douglas returned Annie was talking to her sisters and Douglas fetched. Was that like me when I was Paul?I had never raped anyone in my life but I had done nothing to be proud about in my dealings with women. I knew that I would never get over my guilt as long as I lived. I had ruined too many lives for that. I saw that the only way of ridding myself of this torment was to end it all.Without thinking I took my shoes off, climbed over the low rail of the bridge and jumped.The water was icy cold and I gasped as I hit, drawing in the salty water to my lungs I went.