Aur main bhi dhire dhire gun guna raha tha ‘aa baja du, aa baja du’. Fir laga next song. Humma song. ‘Lagti hai kayamat, dil bhi karne laga baga...at, aaj raat kahi kuch aur na ho jaye. Galti ke liye pehle se hi mangta hu maafi.’Fir laga ‘Tum par hum hain aatke yara, dil bhi mare jhatke’. Mami aur main ek dusre ki taraf dekhte aur haste rehte ki kya kya gaane bante hai (double meaning) aajkal. Fir laga thumka song. ‘Laga bijli ka jhatka jab maine dekha uska.Kya? Thum thum thumka jhumka.’Ye gaana. 00 so the water is nice and cold when I have my shower.I am allowed hot water two times weekly to shave my self, I must becompletely free of hair neck down at all times.At 06.00 I am expected to be dressed and ready to be "inspected" by theautomatic camera system, taking several photos automatically sent of tomy mistress for approval..To be considered "in uniform" I am I am in my custom made carereachastity belt, I have a small kalis teeth ring over my penis, it is tighteven if I am completely. "I don't know yet," I answered, looking out the window at nothing in particular. My heart was heavy. I knew that I cared for Sandy and Jessica. I also had grown close to Justin. He was calling me Uncle Gary now. Yet, I still had issues to deal with.I reached over and took Sandy's hand. "Sandy, you, Justin and Jessica have helped me more than you can ever know. But, I'm still confused. I really don't know who I am or what I want." Have you thought about college?" Yes, I'd like to go to college.. She made a point of seeking out my face to look at.She handed me her apron and looked away while I rubbed myself. "When you're dry, come on in," she said. "There's a mat for you and a blanket near the fireplace. Don't think we'll need the blankets tonight. My kinder will be up shortly after sunrise. G'night. And thank you."I sat on her back step and longed for something to smoke or chew or drink or have sex with. My brain was busy and my muscles and hands were sore. The trouble with chopping.