"Those are your panties aren't they Lyn?"She turned her head away and placed her hands over her mouth like she was going to be sick but made no reply ...o my question."Goddam it Lyn, are those your panties or not?" I nearly shouted in her face, holding them up even with her eyes so she couldn't miss seeing them.With pure anguish she looked away from me and choked out "I don't know". Then the tears started flowing big time.I lost my patience at this point "Don't give me any more bullshit Lyn! They. "No, I don't think so, although we'll need a biopsy to be sure. Theshape and size of the mass point to a very specific kind of benigngrowth that is common on ovaries. However, we will need to get in thereand remove it."I thought for a second. With everything that had happened over the pasthour, my brain wasn't working at full capacity. "Get in there? Youmean...surgery?" Yes, I'm afraid so," Dr. Scolini said. "This type of growth isn'tdangerous at this stage, but it can spread and spread. She got books that told her each step in her baby's development. She had mixed feelings about it all. That was inevitable. She could sense that her whole life would change, once she had a baby, but she couldn't imagine what all those changes would be like. She had done some babysitting, but she knew that wasn't the same. She would be required to "baby-sit" her own baby all day and night ... not just for a few hours.At the same time, there was an excitement in her that she almost couldn't. He did that for us and this is how you are repaying him."Ziggy is also the reason we are back together. He always told me to goafter my heart's desire and it desires you. Right now I am questioningwhy it does."Steff did quit right then. The boy who got his girl back did not likethat she brought up them breaking up. He had a chance to upgrade and itdid not work out. What boy would not have done the same as him? Therewas no way Steff was going to let Joy dwell on them starting over onceagain. The.