I look back as I make my way to the door, but I can only make out hazy body movements through my tear-filled eyes.I hate to do this to her, but I have...to get out for a walk. If I am quiet enough, she won’t even realize that I am gone. At least not right away. This is my problem, not hers. I will text her in fifteen minutes.———————I don’t text her in fifteen minutes. An hour later, I am still sitting, watching the surf in the moonlight, letting the warm sea breeze caress my face. I don’t want to. You don't have to pay straight away if you don't have the money. You can take the porn now and pay later." Thanks."I could hear Eddie's lighter footsteps getting closer to the bed as he walked towards his laptop."You alright?" asked Mark. "You seem a little edgy." I don't know... I just... like... I..." What is it?" The pornos... I'm kind of... you know?" Eddie paused. His voice had changed. He now become very serious. "I like to look at the pornos, I really do, but I really want to have actual. But now I couldn’t help but dwell on the ‘co-incidence’ of this offer from Chris coming immediately after he and Jill had become lovers. Coming at a time when Chris was divorced from his first wife and also between girlfriends.As Jill chatted away excitedly, I tried my very best to keep a poker face to mask my inner turmoil and agony. The woman I loved and who’d sacrificed so much for me and our family was being given a gilt-edged opportunity for advancement. And it tore at my soul to her see. "Beauty is enough for me." She gave Priscilla a challenging stare. "You ready to go out to the barn and make it with Beauty?" Maybe we shouldn't. If your father comes home early, he might catch us."Tammy laughed. "Daddy never comes home early from Harold's ranch. They usually wind up playing cards all day."Priscilla flushed. "How come his horse was over at that ranch?" As long as they talked, Priscilla figured she didn't have to go out to the barn."Diamond is a stud," Tammy bragged. "Ed Harold.