Whole body taut. Small whimpers. Feeling so confused…no, please no, oh god cup my cheek, please, oh god why, someone help me, I don’t want to like...this…please…My throat started to hitch. I hate myself. I hate the way he’s making me feel. Scared, excited and conflicted.I screamed “no” into the gag. Clenched my eyes. Expecting the anger of a r****t. Expecting to be hurt. Body convulsing in fear…His hand is gone. No longer touching me. His voice in my ear, soothing. Stroking my hair. Telling me. Derek had definitely rattled my world Sunday night. Now that theexcitement and the rush from the concert were no longer burning throughmy system, I felt slightly depressed and disappointed again. It wasn'tnearly as bad as it had been before I realized that all I really neededwere my fans and the band, but I was still depressed when I climbed intothe seat of Dad's car.I thought Dad would have been mad because I needed to buy a new guitar.We had spent a lot of Sarah's money on the last guitar,. Oh, and we kissed."Enid looked at Tom, who blushed guiltily. "It was her idea, Enid!" Of course, dear. You refused to kiss her back, didn't you?" Well, no. I couldn't find it in me to refuse." Thank goodness for that. You would have had me worried if you insulted Jeannette. She is my friend, remember." She paused, then continued, "And the mother of your next child after this one." She pointed to her abdomen.Tom simply said, "Yes, dear.", while Jeannette grinned across to Enid.Enid remarked,. Sue was lost in the moment and felt that her body was meant to accept his seed every time she lay with him.When Thomas finally did pull out he held her tight in his arms for the rest of the night. Sue and Thomas knew that their nights would be limited and spent the night just embracing each other.It was ten years before Thomas would hear another person speak of Sue. Thomas tried in vain to search for her after a few months, but she was nowhere to be found. He even tried to find where the.