"He was talking about ?ripping his arms off and beating him to deathwith his own fists? before we left," Janice added."The reality of killing someone ...s different than thinking about it,"Omar said."We?ll talk to his mates before we tell him," Jaclyn said."How do we know the second we let our guard down, those crewmen won?tattack and take the ship out of revenge?" Janice asked Omar. "Or youwon?t lead them, for that matter." I know what kind of man my employer was. I?ve served his family. And she was sure that it was Jeff's handwriting. Wait! Her cell phone! She mentally slapped her hand to her forehead and took it out. Four bars. She speed dialed Jeff's phone.Voice mail. Didn't even ring. So either he's on the phone or it's off. She left a quick message for him to call her back and hung up.She noticed the small TV above and across from her and then noticed the note taped to the screen. Her name on the outside in Jeff's handwriting."Darling,Soon we will be together. Please push. Which made me feel better (he definitely wasn't gay) and simultaneously worse (why wasn't this good enough for him?).Yet, even though I wanted to ask him about what I'd found on his laptop, I didn't. Unsure how to bring it up... and not wanting to make him feel less of a man, I kept my new information to myself.Over the next week, the final week before the Christmas holidays, I did a few things: I read more articles online including: 'If You Want a More Thoughtful and Considerate Boyfriend, Try. ” I blushed to the roots of my dark hair when he said that and I knew he was right really, even though I had enjoyed our little game. “I'm sorry.”“You can be as sorry as you like but there are consequences for your actions that little girls like you need to learn about,” he stepped closer and I was scared he was going to slap me or something but instead he lifted his hand and pushed his thumb between my lips. I didn't know what to do until he said, “Suck,” and then I did, relieved that was all.