I want you so badly—I am willing to give up everything—that’s how much I care for you, respect you and love you.”I was sitting on the edge of ...he bed, crying my eyes out, hoping I could make her understand, but I had to be willing to let her go, if all she wanted was physical gratification.I felt her get up on the bed. She wrapped her arms around me crying as well.“Charles, I am not really sure what I want, but I don’t want to stop dancing with you, I don’t want to cancel the tour or the. "I grabbed her by the hand and headed for the door with Amelie giggling every step. I helped her into the Fiat and away we drove — and not a minute too soon because it seems some of the guests had been awaiting our departure. I had no more than turned the corner when I saw Jenny's van scoot down the street we'd just vacated. I picked a Brewster's as far away from the house as I could find and we sat down to a double chocolate raspberry milkshake."Are you OK with the way things are working out?". "I don't know." Go for this one?here, the mirror is over there, try it."My face feeling on fire, I said, "I've never done this before, can youshow me?" Oh dear little Robin redbreast," she pointed at my blouse and bra, "Youare, too," then in front of the whole salon she showed me how to applythe red waxy substance to my lips."It's a strong colour, and supposed to be kissproof, so you should beall right with your boyfriends, whatever you're kissing." I nearlyswooned at this, feeling a trickle of. So, Nicole began to try to figure out another way around their fertility problem. She finally decided on a rather unorthodox solution that she hoped would get her pregnant and that would keep Phil from realizing that he was their baby's actual father.Three days later, Nicole showed up at her grandfather Bill's house and she knocked on the door and then let herself in when she heard him shout "I'm in the sunroom, baby." Nicole had called ahead and asked her mother's dad if he could let her come.