.that nite was his last nite in town and he was headed back to VA that nite...so I go home thinking about dem bball shorts all hot and bothered and fu...in cussing out that officer!!!! So I take a nap and when I wake I have a barrage of text messages from dude letting me know he's in the City and that he "wants me!" and that shit jus turned me on...I knew we wouldn't have enough time for me to drive to the City and then back to ma spot, so I knew we would have to find a spot and that could. I had to call Rocco for more details and such before I could decide whether to go to Palm Springs to confront her. As betrayed as I felt, there was still something there. I needed more information from Rocco before I could even consider seeing her again. And then there was Susan. I hadn't heard anything yet from Tom, so that was something that would have to be dealt with. A little normalcy would be welcome right about now. My life has been like the world's biggest and baddest roller coaster. Though reluctant at first, she agreed to let him view our love making, but only at a condition that he won't indulge. On that fateful night she dressed in a very skimpy dress, and it really made Hamid ogle at her with gaping eyes. Slowly I put her on bed after some drinks when Hamid joined in, she blushed and closed her eyes, seeing another man in our room. Hamid sat on a chair and lighted a cigarette, with a drink in his hands, while I continued to kiss and fondle Nirmala and suck her lips to. My hand paused though, hovering over a shoe box.How can I be so horny and so scared of boys at the same time? Does that make me a lesbian? No, I want a boyfriend not a girl. I just need a boy who’s shy and nerdy, like me.I grabbed the box and sat down on my bed with it on my lap.Maybe I do just need to get out more. It’s not like I was having any luck with the boys on my course. They’re all either all greasy, mumbling freaks who can’t even look a girl in the eye, never mind speak to them! Or.