"I can't wait," I say and I stand on tiptoes to kiss him on the lips.It's just a quick peck and I have to move away from him or I'll make a fool of my...elf trying to get him to fuck me then and there. I turn my back to him and start looking for my clothes. He hasn't moved from the door when I bend over to pick up a shirt that feel from a clothes hanger. I turn my head, and I see him still against the door, watching mehungrily. "Can you come pick me up from school today? I have a feeling. Have you been seeing men for your needs?" Oh Chuck! How dare you think like that?" I'm sorry. I just thought that men would have been interested in that hot body of yours, since you have been alone." That's true, Chuck. Men have been interested in me. They have wanted to date me, but I've never gone out on any date." You mean you were not tempted?" Of course I was tempted; you know how frequently I get this urge for sex. But I think of you and the sacrifice you have made. So, I've remained. In fact I think it's awesome. But I AM curious. What has made you wear a girl's bathing suit, andmakeup?" Jamie answered, "Well, I think that this is just who I am. I like tolook pretty, and feel pretty."Jordana said, "So, do you consider yourself, a boy, or a girl?" Jamie answered, "Well, I guess I really don't think about it like that. I really feel like am a little of both. But if I was forced to give ananswer, I would say I am a boy who likes being feminine. I guess youcould say I am. I would enjoy what we had and not demand any more. A killer would make a horrible father. ‘What’s wrong?’ Amber said, her smile fading away. ‘Nothing,’ I lied, forcing a smile to my face and trying to forget my thoughts. ‘Long ride with the sun in my eyes.’ Her smile returned, but I could tell she didn’t trust mine. She kissed me and my heart rebelled against me and tore open like paper. I was shaking when I took her in my arms and returned the kiss, holding her tighter than I should. I had.