After leaving him I tell Amy how I feel. Amy…. Do you think I will ever be able to find peace? Jean likes to bully me and makes fun of me. Part of m... wishes she could feel the pain that she causes me. Amy frowns and stops me in front of her locker. I have something to get real quick. She says, grabbing a book from the locker. Turning to me she sighs, look Jean is always going to be a bully, there is something in her life that made her that way. It doesnt give her the right but it is there, now. Shall we prove it to them?” She slipped her arm around Ashley’s shoulders and turned them both toward the waiting photographers. As they snapped away, Ashley wondered if the next day’s pictures would just show two actresses posing for the press, or one woman suddenly crazy about another. ********************* Six weeks later, June 2010 “Cut.” The director looked … displeased. “You okay, Ashley?” he asked, eyebrows raised. Ashley sighed. The first day of shooting and three straight ruined takes?. What I’m really thinking is ‘For gods sake, I really needed a really good fucking, and you’re not up to the task’ But I’d never say that because that would be mean and it wouldn’t help the situation any. I’m not nasty you see! I’m just a little needy sexually and I need a man that can keep up. What’s funny is that you talk the talk so well and you look like a stud, actually it’s not that funny it’s disappointing, like finding out the guy you have a crush on is gay. It’s a waste and it leaves a. " You ought to call in the lacrosse team too. They are friends with Ashley."Chapter 108Kevin4:20 am November 3rd, 2006It was cold and chilly out here this morning. Nothing like the weather where we're going according to the hints Fred dropped me.I made my way through the large crowd that had assembled at the Stone farm. I noticed that a lot of kids had gathered into various small subgroups within the crowd.Outside of gossip, most of the bits of the conversation I overheard were about people.