It was no secret to anyone in the room that Cindie had a huge thing for her girlfriend’s older brother. ‘Oops, sorry about that Kalyn.’ ‘Why a...ologize?’ Kalyn responded. ‘After all, you’re going to …’ Julie shook her head and cut her sister-in-law off. Cindie looked at Julie. There was obviously still more to come. ‘There is more,’ Julie breathed in again. ‘As a member of the family, I would want … it would be expected … for you to participate.’ Cindie didn’t know why she had not anticipated. There were two guys carrying boxes to the truck. They were both very big dudes, going six foot five inches or taller and weighing probably 300 pounds or more.Greg and I jumped off the bikes and I hollered, “Hey, have you guys seen Tammy?”I was trying to act as nonchalant as possible.The biggest one answered, “Nah, she’s at work. We’re just helping her move some of her stuff.”Greg said, “That’s funny, Bubba, what’s her car still doing in the driveway? You don’t mind if we go in and check on her,. It was deep inside and made her feel as though her pelvis or her belly, something down there, everything down there was in a vise. Her mind jumped from frustration to guilt to remorse and back.'How can God give something that feels so good and then make it a sin to do it?'She wished she had the nerve to ask Father O'Halleran. It would have shocked young Rebecca to know that her own mother struggled with the same questions.The moment was lost and she knew it. She needed to get back to the pool. " That may be true, Bill," Pauline said. "And I understand how much each of you sincerely feel the need to go to his funeral, but... well... this is hard to say." What do you mean?" Jake asked."Matt has been in touch with Darren's parents since he's been home. He has convinced them that all of you are to blame for Darren's death." He did what?" Jake yelled."That motherfucker!" Coop put in. "I'll kick his fuckin' ass!" This is most uncouth," Nerdly said indignantly."Yeah," Pauline said. "But the.