And that is what I believed Alan had.Sometimes I felt ashamed of myself. Other times I felt elated that it was really going to happen but at no time d...d I even think of trying to stop it. I have no explanation of why my need was so important. Perhaps I was born with it; perhaps my feeling of inadequacy gradually became overwhelming but the result was the same.The evening before when we were in bed, I did express the fear that Kate might not love me as much afterwards. She told me she understood. I kept my weight off her with my arms, and began a slow stroke into her, gradually getting deeper and deeper, until I was touching her cervix, and she was thrusting her hips up to meet me and panting. She was near, and that was fine, but I was doing everything I could NOT to cum…not yet. I felt her contractions just beginning, and I whispered softly for her to “Fuck me, Susan…fuck me good…that’s a good girl…fuck me tight”; the dirty talk just increased her arousal. Her spasms turned into a. In a way, I was trying to impress him, decided to seduce him. At the same time, I would rather be wearing armor! However confident I felt about my look, my legs could barely keep me walking as I left office. Not to mention when I entered the hotel. Neither when I sow him at a discretely located table.I had though he would not be there before me, just to make me wait, but at the same time, giving me time to relax. But my heart jumped in excitement and nervousness at finding him waving me a hand.. " What do you mean?" You know I'm a sissy. I've told you I'm a sissy." He nodded. "I'm asissy cocksucker. I'm sucking your cock and you've let me stop twicenow before getting what you want."I sat there waiting for my message to sink in. Then I saw the lightswitch come on."Get over here and suck my cock," he said. I crawled closer and openedmy mouth. Instead of waiting for me to start sucking he leaned in,forcing his cock down my throat. His hands gripped the back of my headand with his.