I look like shit and I feel like shit. Icouldn't eat again today. I'm worrying about anorexia. I'm not thatthin but I just don't eat. The drugs, t...e sex, the booze, I don't know.I feel like I'm not well.I think I need to get out and go do something fun. See the girls.Change it up. I've spent so much time on my back with my legs in theair lately and that can't be healthy. I think I need a break fromhooking.End Diary EntryDiary Entry: July 2007Holy shit I did it. M&D were over tonight. She didn't kiss me right away but slipped her head sideways andwhispered in my ear," remember your fantasy? Well I have managed to make it come true for you." Do you recall when I told you about my uncle and the things he used to do to me when I was living with my aunt and him?" "How he used to squeeze my little bum and lick my pussy. He would slide his finger up inside me and make me cum whenhe "tucked me in" at night?" "Well he is in town this weekend and he called and asked if I would like. “Hey, hey, stop doing that,” I said, but my voice had no conviction to it.She did stop and then turned to face me. “Tim, I love sex and love to touch my body. I don’t see anything wrong with that since I’m legally old enough.”“That might be true, I just think that young women should wait before they do it. My daughter is nineteen and she has never had a boyfriend.”Megan giggled a bit and then cleared her throat. “You are so cute. Just because she doesn’t have a boyfriend doesn’t mean that she. My husband, not normally an imbiber, joined in which I found interesting and exciting. After a few minutes, I was feeling good enough to start to tease him and kiss him, not something we normally did in front of anyone, more because of him than me. Julie was by now in a full makeout session with the guy she was dancing with. The bong had been moved outside by Dale and the other guy and I needed some more so my husband and I went out and smoked some more. He asked me what was going on and I was.