" And you want to see me do it?" I told you, yes, Iris said it's really cool. Both her brothers do it for her. She doesn't think it's such a big deal,...they do it every day. More than once, too. Whenever one of them wants to do it, they tell her so she can watch. I want to, too." And you'd never tell mom or dad? Never?" Of course not, Ben. I told you I'd get naked, too. You think I'd tell them about that?"True, that was true, I thought."When will you do it again?" I usually do it in the shower. The wonderful things that medications can do to you. I my fantasy I meet up with Helen at a fast food joint and she gives me one of those wonderful hugs that I just love. She pulls her self up against me and holds me tight as I do the same to her. We break apart and make small talk then go about our lives. But in my fantasy the hug lingers and I feel her sighing as we pull each other even closer. She than pulls back a little from me and looks up into my eyes and quietly says, " Lets get. This was something I'd lain awake thinking about after our fuck that morning. Ben might not be handsome and powerful and brash like some of the boys at Uni that tried to flirt with me, but at least he was caring and protective... and a good fuck. I began to realise that my lesbianism was a bit of a sham. Yes, I enjoyed making love to Penny and the climaxes I had with her, but I suspected it was all a reaction to my relations with former boyfriends.For the rest of the day, we alternately studied. No complaints.”“Good. I was a bit concerned when I had to remind her this morning.”“The day teenage girls don’t say something silly is the day the world ends!”“Or teenage boys say something dumb!” Mom countered.“Yeah, well. It’s testosterone poisoning according to Jocelyn.”“How are you feeling?”“Lousy about that, but what can I do? Mope around? Would you allow that?”“Not if I could help it, no. I wish she would get whatever help she needs.”“She seems to believe the only help she needs is to be.