Once if I enter her pussy with my penis then the next time she would not object. I came on her top.Bhabhi:” do you have condom?”Me: “no bhabhi b...t its ok. I will cum outside. Don’t worry nothing will happen. I will bring the contraceptive pills later if you are not sure’”.Bhabhi: “ok. Is this your first time?”Me: ‘”no bhabhi I have done this with my girl friends using condom, I was not sure whether they are safe or no, but I believe on you completely”.She was looking at my face, I went on her. Why can’t you be mine? Why are we doing this to ourselves! My fingers plunge deeply inside me with aggravation and fear. Fear of what you are doing beneath your covers tonight. I cry out in pleasure when I finally come. Pleasure quickly followed by deep dark black hole of pain. I am broken. I cry openly and let myself shatter in all possible ways.You lift her leg over yours and insert yourself into her. She screams. You let your head fall into the crook of her neck. her arms wrap around your. Nin felt me shaking and grabbed my hand, "Jamie, you're trembling. It willall be alright."Easy for you to say, I thought. I'm the one who's going to dressed up likea princess and be the hostess of a party for a group of friends andcontacts of one of Bangkok's most powerful men. Actually, come to think ofit, Nin would love to do it.In my admittedly limited experience of luxury shopping, it's my theorythat the price of an item in a shop rises in inverse proportion to thenumber of items on display. How do I put this......vanishes into thin air."What the fuck?" I say audibly, loudly and Mr Moore hears me.He looks at me with steely eyes and says coolly. "Now do you believe me?**Oh fucking great.Now I'm hallucinating.Wouldn't that be perverse?To go from Doctor to patient.But schizophrenia and all the related conditions don't manifest withvisual hallucinations.They are principally auditory.Visual hallucinations usually suggest something organic. Some otherpathology.Honestly I don't know which.