Now that my goals are pretty much accomplished and my schemes are more or less successful, I can look at what I've done. Sure, in most ways it's great...and I wouldn't change a thing even if things didn't always go as I'd planned. But in other ways I look at what I've done and feel ... distressed. Guilty."Xania cocked an eyebrow at her former roommate. "Guilty? Why? It's not because of the incest factor, is it?"Suzanne shrugged that off with a chuckle. "What, that? No. Hardly. It's mostly about. She was standing there a bit nervous but relieved to see me again."Is he here?" She asked nervously."He's just downstairs but he isn't going to be bothering anybody for a long while. The look on her face was now one of concern as she didn't know what I had meant by my statement."Is he...alive?" Unfortunately...I am pretty sure."Mom looped her arm through mine and we both walked downstairs. She looked around cautiously not quite knowing where Chuck was at until we went around the corner into the. He meant well, he really, really did. He was normally a nice guy and even a little shy. But on a date he inevitably started obsessing about whether he was going to get lucky. He couldn’t pretend to himself that he didn’t care, because he really did, and the more he tried to pretend he didn’t the more he did, so that didn’t work. He couldn’t stick to a pledge to himself not to not have sex on the first date, because even though it had never happened to him he knew that sometimes it did happen to. I even took cash out of my credit account so that it was all very untraceable.The whole business meeting I felt like a nervous wreck, my mind rnning over the reality of what I was about to do and my concentration on the meeting at an all time low. Wow, sucking a cock and getting penetrated in my virgin arsehole for the first time. i really wonderd if I would go through with it, or simply bolt at the last minute.I had struggled to find the address and when I did eventually park up, the row of.