They'd swear black and blue that they never saw it, don't know what color the ball is, who threw it, or any other visual detail. All they see is an un...elenting single shade of gray. Catching a ball they don't even know is being thrown at them is possible because the subconscious maintains its own visual processing center in a more primitive part of the human brain. It has a very limited functionality (which does include catching balls), and is totally inaccessible to the conscious mind - that's. You must believe me when I tell you that the last thing I want to happen is having Roger learn about you being sexually manipulated and humiliated by me. What you can do to make it easier on yourself is to accept it.”“You don’t understand,” June said tearfully. “I don’t want to be humiliated in front of strangers. Alright, so I do get a little aroused by thinking about it, but that doesn’t mean that I enjoy it. My body simply reacts to the situation, but my mind tells me that what I’m doing is. But you know what?I didn't. J laughed.They sent me away for the better part of five years? But they never found the money.What money? I asked, naively.The fucking money I...made.Where is it?The fuck I'd tell you? Federal prosecutors couldn't get it out of me? And I'd tell my bitch-fuck housemaid I just met an hour ago? Rub that spot, there.Yessir. No, I...Statute of limitations ends in, like, five-plus years. Then we'll see...See what? I wondered.Time flies when you're having fun, J said. "Did you hear all that?" Yeah. And I got the email. You need roadies." She smiled.I giggled. "Even round ones." Tina's belly, thirty-odd weeks into pregnancy, was prominent. She and Susan were racing to the finish line, a month and a half ahead of Johanna and a good two months ahead of Mom.If there was jealousy anywhere in this community, it was the twinges I get from seeing a happy herd of pregnant women. Still, I'm not the age I would want to be if Dan could get me pregnant and I certainly.